Saturday, 5 November 2011

Am I Even Here?

I know I'm talking
I can hear the sound of my voice
But it makes no impression
Their expressions stay the same

Are they doing it on purpose?
Or has it become habit?
Are they not even aware anymore?
It wasn't always this way.

I've let things slide
Made excuses for their heartache
But now it's my heart that's heavy
My soul that's suffocating.

I look around at where once was calm
And now is chaos
And wonder why I am ignored
Why I hold no weight anymore.

Then I realise it is my own doing
I have to stand up and be counted
I'm older than they are
I am the one in charge

I just have to get it back.


  1. Whoa, this is very, very deep indeed. Lisa, this post took my mind to all kind of places, places that I don't normally like to visit and I wonder where your head was at when you wrote it.

  2. I know what that is like. I have two children. I seem to not exist anymore, not me, not really. Not the person I once was before when my life was my own. Deep thinking Lisa!

  3. I loved this. I may not have children but I do know how it feels to feel invisible or not being heard.

    Well written and makes a person think.
    Thank you.

  4. Omg I can SO relate to this! Thank you Lisa. Nice to feel I'm not alone although I'm sad you have to feel it to. *hugs*